My surname - Pan

I was wondering am i in decision making process? I am always the last one to know everything in my family or should i put it in this way, i just being "inform" what i should do and no objection.

Whatever their so call suggest is to order me to do them a favor. It is tired to listen all those "suggestion" whereby i can not say NO. I did said No once or twice but end up i am the one to blame for not help or contribute enough to family. What on earth i become so so desperate to fulfill my family's need?! Answer - I've got no choice.

I just need a little respect to get me in decision making before decision is made.

I feel content

Last week was my busiest week till now. As my previous post mentioned, i did my short(very short) trip SG-Penang-KL-SG. I tell you, IT IS EXHAUSTED!

It takes approximate 10 hours time from Sg to Penang and i didn't slept well on the way. Ops..is three days in a row i never get a proper sleeping time. Anyway i manage to go and had my hair cut. It feels more refreshing with this new haircut. I like it.

I ate a lot in Penang, my appetite was extremely good at there! I had Wan Ton Mee, Fried Carrot Cake, Rojak, Apam Balik, Indian Style Fried Mee. Gotta take note that all of these are sharing with my sister. Back in KL, when i reached my brother's place we went to steven corner have our supper. I ordered Tosai for myself, not very like it compare to Kayu at SS2.

Before i board my bus back to Sg, we(my brother, sister and me) have our early dinner at Old Town. I found that Old Town Nasi Lemak is not bad...yumyum. I reached SG at 1am!! Grassland people lied to me, they said bus driver will use Second Link end up was Woodsland Checkpoint. *geram*

I spent my last weekend with Eason Chan, location at Singapore Indoor Stadium. Hahahaha. It is a good show and worth for my SGD 200. We are so closed to Eason Chan and his wife and daughter of course. A bit disappointed he sang quite a lot Mandarin Songs, but i still love the concert. Eason Chan I Love You!

Sunday went for movie with Charlene. The Dark Knight - Good, especially Joker. Poor Edison Chen only appeared few seconds in the movie.

困扰

很多事情真的很难去分辨是与否，
当你知道越多的时候未必是一件好事。
这只会让自己感到更烦恼，痛苦
思绪真的很乱，我只要一个平凡的日子。

我的要求不过份吧...
我可以是你的聆听者，不过有些事情放在心里总比说出好
很难去分辨你对我说的是真心还是假意
不想去深入了解 不想去寻找真相
原因是不想再让自己过度伤心

你的言行举止让人窒息
你的真心话往往会让我质疑

我真的很累

不想历史重演 痛苦的那一刻是难以形容
人的接受能耐有限 不要再把你的快乐建在我的痛苦上
痛痛快快的畅饮一场或许是我的临时解药