Yesterday i was meeting up with my ex-colleague. As usual we meet up at Bugis Junction and have our dinner at Japanese ramen restaurant. Be honest that i don't wish to meet her because I've got nothing to talk about. Topic doesn't change from my ex-company to her relationship with her Fiance. This is fucking boring topic for me u know. FFK become the usual thing i do to her...too bad.
I am sick of what she told me. I don't have passion to listen those stuff that i am not concern in it. Is it because i am change? I think it might be, as age do change some one's mind. I am 25 and i still have not achieve any goal of mine...sad. The only problem for me now is my career. I need a new job offer! My current job is making me fucking exhausted. Nearly 8 months I've learn nothing on my work. Sorry, I gotta correct that i don't have any work to do. With that in mind, my boss also can blame or scold me without any valid reason. Poor me for get paid to be a person for my boss to let go his madness. Arghhh....
Another day or post to complaint my job. Shit....i gotta stop it.
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Being sick for about 2 weeks and now just recovering from it. Recently i am not in mood to do anything. Even watch drama during office hours also doesn't help me getaway from that. I'm even watch it while my manager was sitting right behind my desk. So lucky that my manager did not ask me for not doing this in office. I am totally insane right!! Anyway i am manage to finish the HK drama called Father and son by Bobby Au Yong.
Here are some thought after finish this drama. For rising a kid isn't an easy job for parents. From gave birth to start schooling. Money is a must for that and always love and give support to your kids as well. I am not a good mother for my twins boy. I can not share my time for them as they are in cameron highlands. The only way is thru phone conversation to let us closer. Sometimes miss them a lot and can't hold on blaming myself for not being a good mother.
My elder twin starts his kindergarden few days ago. Time goes fast and i can't imagine that my 4 years old son start schooling. It is happy and exciting for him. But what i've in my mind is when his friends asking about where his "Daddy" will he feel uncomfortable on that? I am for sure that he is much more mature than any other same ages kids. He knows why he don't have daddy although me and my family didn't tell him the actual reason. I am so touch when my son told me that he knows "daddy" did something bad on me. He claims himself also don't want recognize a daddy like that. Proud for having such loving sons.
Single parent or mother is not an easy job. I have to face any problem may happen to my sons. Especially my younger twin. The intangible burden is heavier than anyone thought. I am always stay optimistic for being a single parent. But sometimes things happen to me isn't let me to do so. I have failed in two relationships. Reason why? First relationship is his family can not accept that i am single parent. Second relationship is he giving up for trying so long time to adopt it. Actually i can understand on that. Common sense -- Why choose a lady with kids rather than any other ladies out there? I make myself very clear that if one day i meet a man, i will not ask anything from him for my twins. This is the principle for myself since day one i gave birth to my sons. By the way, i haven't meet my Mr. Right yet or maybe i will stay single for my life long. hahahaha
What i need to do now is keep on "digging" money and give my sons a best living and studying environment.
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Everything seems not smooth enough for me today.
I am still cough like hell and block nose. This is making me fucking blur!!
Hate to sit in office now, hate to listen to what my manager want me to do, I hate everything!
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"Dead cat" is not easy to swallow it ok!! This is not the first time and i DON'T WANT it happen to me again. Did you (TE Pte Ltd) hear me! Fuck #$^&%^
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Im back! Having a long Chinese New Year holiday in my hometown-Cameron Highlands.
As usual, first day of CNY (nin chor yet) we have our vegetarian breakfast cook by mum. After that i was sitting in living room and stick to the Astro TV programme whole day. This time i did not go for my sec school mates gathering. Yes, i admit that i am Anti social. But the gathering isn't my expectation that ALL of them be there. It just few of them and plus we are not that close.
Second day of CNY (nin chor yi) is my family gathering. We all will go to my grandma house and eat steamboat not once is whole day will stick to the steamboat. hahaha.....sinful day.
Here comes the ridiculous news from my newly wed sister to me. Rumors out there was IM MARRIED!! WTF .....i was fucking shock that how come people can come out this stupid news and spread it out. My sister's friends asking her about this and my sister- speechless. Hey excuse me, I am single now and i really got no idea where can i find a "Husband" for you all to talk about. I can't imagine that i did not go for a gathering can happen such ridiculuos things to me. I am here to clarify again that I am Single now. Please don't simply made a story for gossiping ok. Hmmm.....i think i have to well prepare for next CNY. Maybe the headline is "Gwen and her husband divorce".
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杨综伟 - 洋葱
如果你眼神能够为我 片刻的降临
如果你能听到 心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你 沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己 像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多开心
最角落里的我 笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我 永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我 最压抑 最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层 的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我 看到我的全心全意
听你说你和你的他们 暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望 装得很风趣
我就像一颗洋葱 永远是配角戏
多希望能与你 有一秒 专属的剧情
听了这首歌之后突然十分感触...
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Why im choose to work in SG instead of my mother land - Malaysia? The answer is I've got no choice. I did think of stay in KL after graduate but by considering the expenses and with the little amount of salary for a fresh graduate. Well...finally make a decision for myself to start my new journey in a Kiasu+Kiasi country --> Singapore.
What i've "sacrify" for working in Sg
1) The nicest food exp: Curry, Roti Canai, Prawn Mee, Hokkien Mee and lots more.
2) Happy + crazy life with my friends
3) Chit chatting with friends at Mamak till early in the morning
4) Cigarette
5) Freedom for doing anything (do not ask me what is including *evil smile*)
What i've got for working in Sg
1) A work pass issued by Ministry of Manpower Singapore
2) When people asking me about my salary in M'sia, i can add "Sing Dollar" behind
3) Can buy branded clothing at lower price (when sale)
4) Clean and safer environment
I think this is what i can list down at this moment. And one more thing
I miss KL, I miss the food, I miss you all !!
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