Complicated

wordless, speechless, just can't pull out the feeling from my head.

Lily Allen - The Fear

Too much to say

It is too much i wish to talk about but time is not allow me to do it.

I am still planning out what i need to do in year 2009. I can't really make out a 2009 TO DO list for myself because my head not work well since i joined my new company. Every single space in my head was full of schedule, timing, promos, target and of cause daily report. It is a tiring job but i am feel much much content now compare to the day with my previous job.

Celebrated my Christmas with lotsa people and friends. They are fun and full of partying idea. Still waiting for the Christmas photo from a girl or i should say a tall( 179cm) and pretty girl.

And for now is time to welcoming a big festive in end of January - Chinese New Year. It seems like last CNY was just a few months back. This year will be a harder and tougher year to celebrate it. But nothing can stop us right! Work hard, play hard. yay yay!!

These 2 days shopped for CNY clothing for myself and of cause my lovely sons.

12 more days, i will be home to celebrate CNY and have a Happy Renunion Dinner. I am exciting is because these time my brother will come back from US to celebrate with us. It is really a Happy Reunion for our family. Yay!

My surname - Pan

I was wondering am i in decision making process? I am always the last one to know everything in my family or should i put it in this way, i just being "inform" what i should do and no objection.

Whatever their so call suggest is to order me to do them a favor. It is tired to listen all those "suggestion" whereby i can not say NO. I did said No once or twice but end up i am the one to blame for not help or contribute enough to family. What on earth i become so so desperate to fulfill my family's need?! Answer - I've got no choice.

I just need a little respect to get me in decision making before decision is made.

I am Back

My poor blog is been abandoned by me for so long.

Everyday i am working my ass off to finish schedule. Recently my boss came out a target for my team. She wants Six weeks in advance for the scheduling. I can't imagine how are we going to do that for her. Bear in mind that only three peoples in my team do 24/7 channel program.

Till now i still fine with my new company but not for my colleagues. Oh well, i will not judge her as she might has huge ambition in her mind.

Christmas is coming, i am still wondering what should i do during Christmas Eve. Stay home watch TV? Countdown with friends? Switch off mobile lost contact with the world and have a "Silent" Night? Hmmm....

OK. Times up! Working time.

Ciao