最近

最近的我常常让自己很忙，放工时间到了也没有冲回家的念头。满脑子都是要如何度过来临的周末。我是在麻醉自己吗?

最近想一朝发达，我看我是想钱想昏了头。这只怪我生存在这个现实第一的社会。

很想不顾一切一走了之，我不可以。很想给人拥抱的感觉， 我没这样的福气。很想拥有自己的房子， 我还没有能力。 很想念恋爱的感觉， 可是我瞒享受单身的生活。

我们又渐渐的聊开了，是他以为无聊寂寞的我要人聊天 还是还是...我自己也搞不清。算了吧，就当我无聊过度想太多。 因为这永远都不会有一个很明确的答案。

渴望着来临的日子能给我那么一点点的惊喜。实在是无法忍受那乏味无穷的打工日！

Singapore Zoo

I found myself very depress for stay home with my aunt and grandma so decided to date my friends - Janelle on last weekend. Earlier time Jaster, Janelle and me suppose meet up for lunch and shopping but Jaster couldn't make it at the end. Therefore me and janelle decided to go Singapore Zoo after receive my beloved Jaster's message.

I think some of you might think both of us are crazy because these days singapore is damn hot. However it doesn't affect us as we need something different on weekend. On Saturday 10.30 in the morning, me and Janelle met at AMK MRT. About 11am we reach our destination - Singapore Zoo. Surprisingly that weather is just nice for us.

Still remember last year this time wern shen and me did visit Singapore Zoo. Oh well....is nice and memorable trip for me.

The most impressed me is Polar Bear - Inuka. He is HUGE. While we waiting for the feeding time show , he is napping. Here comes two boring lady start take picture. Hehe....

Can't imagine that mother polar bear is smaller size that son - Inuka. Guess what..Inuka favourite food is watermelon. After the polar bear show we go and grab some food before another show at 2.30pm. While waiting the splash show, we take picture again. LOL

I'm look like force to smile in the picture

We walk every single corner of the zoo, take some silly photo along the way. We take a small rest when we found a smoking area which is good news for me. Hehe...

We end our trip with one last round on the tram in the Zoo and heading to town afterwards. Suppose i wish to buy a cap near town area but we couldn't get the place. I just give up at the time since both of us are tired. We dinner at Waraku at Central. It is damn long queue on weekend. After waiting quite some times then only have a table for two for us. We had ordered a bowl of Hot cream Scallop with Udon, Ura Maki and Tempura Yasai Mori ( Assorted vegetables). It is damn full and Janelle buy me a Hokkaido ice cream for sharing. We chose black sesame and green tea.. O i Shi~

Both of us walk around from Clark Quay to Raffles Quay. All for all, last weekend is about walking. I have take night scene picture at Raffle Quay. It is nice and next time we will hang out there again. At least i feel my mind is peaceful at that time.

This is an exciting weekend i had last week and hope another joyful weekend ahead!

p/s Click here for more photo

Older generation Hakka Lady

I am "Hakka Mui". Every time when people asking me what is my dialect, i will so proud to say i am "Hakka yan". It is because i can listen all praises about Hakka girl like is a good wife, hardworking, thrifty....

Recently my grandma is in Singapore for having a long break. Everything is fine earlier days, but things getting change and worst for me. I need to report myself home after works. Everyday need to mention that i am not having dinner with them( My grandma, aunt and her hubby). Although i have mention i am not going to have dinner the day before, but still will receive a message late evening saying that my grandma already cook for me. How am i going to have heavy dinner after gym? The dishes also not my favor and the taste is too light for me. I am so sorry that i am being too picky.

Another so called save more money method. A big tin of baked beans even me myself can finish it. I can't imagine my grandma only used half of it to cook. Normally dinner will have at least 2 dishes, but my grandma said "chin cai la" steam a fish is good enough for 3 peoples -_-'''

Apart of this, my daily routine also affected. Having an early morning cold shower is refreshing and i love it. Blow dry my hair is a must after shower. I choose to do it out of my room as my grandma still sleeping at that time.

The conversation between me and my grandma at 7.15am.
Grandma: Why not you blow dry your hair in the room?
Me : You still sleeping ma, then i don't want to kacau you.
Grandma: I am wake up already. You know is even more noisier you blow dry your hair outside there?
Me : Really?
Grandma: Yaaa. You will disturb your aunt was sleeping at the other room there. You better do it in the room because you only kacau me not everybody.
Me : Ok lor. ( @%$%@ in my heart)

Two more weeks to go, i need to be more patience. Hope i will not become like this when i am old. From now on i need to earn more and save more money to buy a house. There is no more constraint, no more boundary, only report to myself.

Update

I've got my first tattoo. Can't take picture myself because is on my back. I guess will get another one in future. Hehe....

Im finish watched all six season of Sex and the city. It is a good and inspiring series. I love Sex and the city!

My plan for a vacation seems like put in the "KIV folder". Oh well...

Last weekend, I shopped alone and found out is enjoy and not as lonely as i've thought. I have bought some shirts at Zara, a pair of shoes, Mask and have my lunch + dinner at Carl's Jr.

David Cook won American Idol 2008! He is damn hot. I love the way he sang, he smile and his look. Oh gosh..i am so so so love him.

伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

I am Broke

Mentally and physically broke. May i announce that 9th May 2008, Gwen Pan hasn't got her pay!

There is NO excuses for me to stay here anymore. I am totally fed up and yes I am Fucked up. If i did not call to chase for my pay, is it you all will keep your eyes close and do nothing? By knowing the reason why transaction not being approved, why don't correct it on the spot? It does not consume much time of you.

Am i look not fierce enough so you guys keep on bully me? I did not say it out not because of i am not concern. I have had enough of it. ENOUGH!

Wondering

A good kisser means he/she good in bed?

Can we judge a person by this?