Believe it or...

Do you believe in fortune teller?

My mind was being interrupted by what my mum told me last weekend. Undoubtedly that my mum was very into those fortune telling stuff. She can drive to everywhere she want in order to find a "si fu" to predict future. I am not that obsess in it but sometimes it really touch your heart when listen to a stranger say somethings that relate to ourselves. Recently my mum went to some where near Kampar to get to this "Si Fu". An old lady and damn accurate when describe our family members attitude. This is what my mum them told me.

Here comes the hints that the old lady gives to my mum. It is regarding my younger twin(Jun Xuan). Jun Xuan is a celebral palsy kids, in simple he will not growing up like any other kids. Since the day we found out, we never give up to get best treatment for him. No matter how curiosity or sympathy way of peoples look at him, he still an angel in our heart. The Old lady told my mum that Jun Xuan will not stay with us longer time. What you will react when you listen to something like this? My head keep bumping up what can i do when this really happen. I can't even sleep well these days with this fucking hints. Keep turning my mind upside down.

Sigh...

I will rather choose to believe in miracle like what Jaster said to me. In this time i really do. Nothing is impossible when we really give an effort on it. Hints has been given but not gonna stop me to love Jun Xuan and Yu Xuan. They brighten my life with their smile, laugh, baby talk...

Dear Jun Xuan, Yu Xuan,

Mommy loves you two very much! *Muaks*

I feel content

Last week was my busiest week till now. As my previous post mentioned, i did my short(very short) trip SG-Penang-KL-SG. I tell you, IT IS EXHAUSTED!

It takes approximate 10 hours time from Sg to Penang and i didn't slept well on the way. Ops..is three days in a row i never get a proper sleeping time. Anyway i manage to go and had my hair cut. It feels more refreshing with this new haircut. I like it.

I ate a lot in Penang, my appetite was extremely good at there! I had Wan Ton Mee, Fried Carrot Cake, Rojak, Apam Balik, Indian Style Fried Mee. Gotta take note that all of these are sharing with my sister. Back in KL, when i reached my brother's place we went to steven corner have our supper. I ordered Tosai for myself, not very like it compare to Kayu at SS2.

Before i board my bus back to Sg, we(my brother, sister and me) have our early dinner at Old Town. I found that Old Town Nasi Lemak is not bad...yumyum. I reached SG at 1am!! Grassland people lied to me, they said bus driver will use Second Link end up was Woodsland Checkpoint. *geram*

I spent my last weekend with Eason Chan, location at Singapore Indoor Stadium. Hahahaha. It is a good show and worth for my SGD 200. We are so closed to Eason Chan and his wife and daughter of course. A bit disappointed he sang quite a lot Mandarin Songs, but i still love the concert. Eason Chan I Love You!

Sunday went for movie with Charlene. The Dark Knight - Good, especially Joker. Poor Edison Chen only appeared few seconds in the movie.

I break the Monday routine blog post

Woohoo~ Finally, I didn't post up Emo blog post on monday.

This week will be a busy week for me. I need to go Penang tonight as one of my relatives passed away. [RIP] After this i have to go KL as i can't get any ticket from Penang to Sg that match my timing on Wednesday. End up my plan is

Monday 9.30pm - Sg to Penang
Tuesday - Penang
Wednesday - Penang to KL
Thursday - KL to Sg

*sweat* tiring*

Anyway, I will go to my highly recommend Hair Saloon (Zing) at Jalan Genting Kelang this time. I can not tahan my messy hair right now. Need my hair stylist to do something on my hair. Compare Sg and Malaysia, I still prefer Malaysia's Hair Stylist. Malaysia Boleh!

Friday i will go back to work as usual like surfing, youtube, blog, gaming or day dreaming. Forget about my boring job. I can't wait for my Eason Chan's Concert on this Saturday! Recently I've been played his songs repeatedly in my play list. Why? Its because of i can sing along with him on that day! LOL

Short update on my shopping list...
With my big head and big face, is hard to get a nice mesh cap. However, last weekend I bought myself one from River Island. It is fitted me well.

@!%#&$^*#(

Today isn't my day! My PC is in "going to die" stage. I've been using NJ star Communicator to read or write chinese words, but today its been announced DEAD. I still can open the software but useless. I can't read those chinese words on my friends' MSN personal message, I can't read online newspaper, I can't read ANY chinese words in Mozilla FireFox. Kill me instead!! Anyone can help me out?

Another pissing me off is the old man in my office. Old man who is my Project Manager(PM) and i had gave him a nick name --> Fart Man. I can not blame as this is a human nature. The point is he will do it everyday, yes he fart in office everyday. No matter what happen or where he is in office, I can hundred percent guarantee he will fart at least twice a day. I've gotta mention is he normally spend in office approximately 3 hours a day. Can you imagine it? In 3 hours time he can fart so many times with the kind "lovely gun shooting sound fart".

People getting old will repeat same question, same answer to you. Undoubtedly, PM in my office also like that. Repeat asking the same old question to me, oh gosh! I am not a player where you can click on the repeat button. Stop asking me same question in a row!

陳奕迅 - 不要說話

I am an Adult

Seems that every Monday i will post somethings about my conversation with my mum.

Every weekend i will call home and chit-chat with my mum and my sons. Recently my mum was keep on pressing me on why i spent a lot of money on nonsense things like hanging out with my friends. It is over that she ask me NOT to hanging out with my friends anymore because she want me to send more money for family.

I need to clarify that i do have send money back every month. I didn't compare myself with others peers as i need to raise my sons. But i need my private time like hanging out with my friends and this is the only way out to let go my loneliness in Sg. She loves me to stay home and soon become a nerd. Am i have a great potential become that? I am absolutely will not let her do that to me.

My mum was like the controller of my life, every step and move of me is controlling by her. I can not against her. I never say No to her since she was so love to plan my whole life in her favor. I do whatever she want, she like, she ask and blablabla....Is this too much for a mum's responsibility upon her daughter or son? I am no longer 12 years old girl and I'm going to turn 25 years old in months time later. Parents always pointed out which is the best way for us but couldn't we voice out our view on how we wish to spend the rest of life?

I was trying to discuss with my friends on this issue. I need their opinions on am i not doing well as a daughter. At least i feel much comfort afterwards...i mean a while. My head will not stop thinking how to become a perfect daughter for my mum. How to let my mum feel that i can do my own decision. How to change my mum's mindset. How to get rid of my mum's critical opinion on how badly i am.

What an adult has, i need most now.

My PC kena virus!

I don't know what is going on?! My only entertainment is completely out of my control. Suddenly pop up some sort of spyware windows. I don't know why my mouse click on it, after clicking it and keeps on pop up saying that "Critical Error". I remove the program also doesn't help!!

Oh gosh..my only entertainment going to die and same to me. How am i going to spend my boring day in office without my lovely PC here! I going to call the Lansi IT guy to come and fix it. But before i make a call i have to get my documents backup on my external hard disk. My files in PC can not let him know as i download a lot of songs, confirm that he will say this is reason why virus attack my PC. It's been a year time i download songs from web and i didn't find that my files got problem in other PC. He can not blame me and he is the one to blame. All antivirus in my office computers were expired far too long ago and he didn't update and renew for us. Hate him!

I am so sad. Only thing i can do now is sayang "it" more so that "it" will not get mad and still work well with me till i off .